E-RANTS AND INSIGHTS

I just don't want to do it.

And I know I still will because I still feel like I have to do it but STILL!

I just don't feel like spending crazy money on people to prove I care about/like/love them this year!

It goes against my love for the spontaneous.
There's a level of expectation that Christmas brings that I'm not feeling, and it has nothing to do with being generous or caring.

If I come across something that I think you may like, then sure, I'll pick it up. But to go out and find something? All for the sake of what?

Hell, if I've shot you an email, text message, or talked to/called you in the past 3 months or so consider yourself favored.

*groan*

I just don't feel like it.

And again, I ask, why exactly are we exchanging gifts anyway?
Because baby Jesus got broke off after He was born?

That's called a birthday party.

Why the hell would YOU/I get presents on someone else's birthday?
And if the argument is then "It's for Christians because we follow Christ"
that's some bull.

I go to church with a whole bunch of "unholiness" so don't run that game on me.

Speaking of which, I wonder how many people would find religion if it determined how many paid holidays you get at work?

Cuz I know I'm always like "Dammit!" around Jewish and Muslim holidays.

Anyhoo...

I just don't want to deal with the (self-imposed) guilt if I choose to opt out of the gift-giving ritual this year.

Well, not everybody. Gotta take care of my kids. That's default. Then there's the Parental Unit (they've given me waaaaaay more than I could give them on a holiday). Then the siblings. Then the extended fam. Lawd, you should feel my heart right now. Cuz then there's the hometeam.

Lawd.

And all these grad school app fees are due...GMAT fee...regular bills...living expenses...

Lawd.

My breathing is getting tight.

And I'm also salty cuz I lost $40 on Sunday. Perfect example of why I don't do cash.

What the F ever.





Happy Merry.